a words for my brother. Happy birthday.

just so you know, i am NOT a crazy bossy control freak that wan to have full control of your life. I'm more than happy to get off your case. Just took my side for once,please. Imagine a life when i had no obligation to answer those phone calls telling me about all your problems , how much time i can save ? Perhaps you will think that we always criticize you, correct your behavior of interfere your decision and never ever look at your good side or praise you. However, i wan you to recall. Did we for once, not be supportive when you were really in need? Did we walked away when you caught in trouble? Did we turned our back to you when you ask for favor that really matters? I believe we don't . Perhaps we weren't the best brother or sister in the world, or may be not even the average one. But our concerns and care are not in anyway lesser. You may said our concern and care hold you back from what you really wanted to be, or it interrupt and interfere some of your decision. Well , maybe its true. But don't forget, not one is perfect. We ain't saints after all.


I had no idea whether you bought that present for your 21th bufdae or not. But i hope you didn't. First i owe you an apology for yelling at you and insulted you, i lost my cool.
Its perfectly fine if you wan to buy a present for yourself  on your 21th bufdae. Something that you found meaningful and something u really wanted, a guitar. A guitar is good and the effort of you to continue your guitar learning touches me , i must said that i admired your spirit. Never give up. Its really good.
 
just that did you ever revised your decision of buying such an expensive one, was it necessarily? I am not arguing on the quality ,durable , price thing again with you. Remember Maslow's five need? There are
Psychological need where its mean food or cloth and there are other. Can you recall what that on the very top of the pyramid of needs?
Self actualization!! i know, there were some part of you always wants to be fulfilled. And its music you had chosen. I am not blaming your to skip all the other's need and jump straight to the top to achieve or pursuing your dream, or your self-actualization. You can have your dream  now , because you're young and because you can. But as your brother, i had to tell you this. Sometime, dream and reality must be balanced or else you will just end up to be a dreamer and when you are old , you will gonna regret this. Okay, perhaps i gone too far , but the point is as i told you before, needs and wants is something very different. Now since you are 21, u should act like an adult.

You are that kind of guy who want to have your own family, i always know that, and quite frankly i want the same too. But I CAN'T!! i envy you that u can have your own children and family and i couldn't. So i really wan you to be a better person to build a family. You can act like our dad u know? You can't had anything and everything you wanted because if you did, imagine how pathetic your wife and your children gonna. Don't have the opinion that you were young and its okay. Well, our character and personality are formed during we were a child u know and it existed and continue for a lifetime. SO ,its NOT OKAY!! you can buy something cheaper, we didn't stop you from that, did we? But 500++? that a lot for a student u know? Maybe u will think its not fair because i can spend so much money on this and that. But guess what, i am always gonna be LESS!! i won't had a child , a husband left alone a family. its actually a compensation for me to buy stuff. I needed to be surrounded and since money can buy companionship and other form of compensation. That's why i spend money.

But you AREN'T !! we are different. So, i will really need you to reconsider on your decision. If you decided to buy , then go ahead. i won't say a words. And this is the last thing that i ever gonna get involved with and i will be more than happy to get off your back from now. You are already 21, you are an adult, so you're gonna bear the responsible of your life. Just remember, No matter how your life are, you made it and dun ever said : its all your fault.

Happy 21st bufdae.